Have you ever been in a state of quandary? A state that makes you to consider your decision critically. A state of which a fatal flaw might harm your future. It involves mortal's feeling and emotion as well. You are in the condition of struggling to decide what is best for you and others. Sounds difficult, right?
I hate its presence. I hate being in that condition. I've been there tho. Many times. I hate being left with options. I'm scared that I might regret my decision later. I'm scared that I might get tired of telling myself, 'Everything will be fine. You are doing good there.' I'm scared that I might stop pretending like everything is okay and giving up instead. These are my greatest fear in the universe (not true. EXAGGERATION).
BUT THEN...
I'm a firm believer of the saying, 'THE GRASS IS ALWAYS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE'. Everything has its own reason to be so. I choose what I think is right to do. I believe that everything is part of Lord's plan for me. HE has the best plan for us indeed and who are we to deny it? A blessing in disguise I named it. If it was a mistake then LEARN from it.
'Life is all about making choices. Always do your best to make the right ones and always do your best to learn from the wrong ones.' - anonymously
I chose the one that makes me happy and I'm sorry that I had to neglect someone's (more than one, I guess) feeling for my decision. STILL...
I AM GRATEFUL FOR WHAT HAD HAPPENED.
Brace yourself July! We are going to rock you this Raya. All the best!
ps/ BTW, which one is better; short sleeve or long sleeve? *sigh*